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CAROLE KOHANIM
May the twelfth
Michelle came back today and my Doctor let us go for a walk
outside in the garden. I was afraid to ask her about Melanie and she
didn't bring up the subject herself.
Oh God. Thank you for today.
It
was so beautiful outside.
As
I
walked along with my sister I felt like I was walking in Heaven.
I felt beautiful and I knew my black skin shined in the sun. I
looked at my sister Michelle and I felt proud to be her brother and
her Brother. The Doctor has really helped me. I know now that the
black race will reign - in Ethiopia and Vietnam and China and
Argentina and right here in California. I felt
this
Beauty in me and
I felt like a Saint. I turned to Michelle and I
almost
sang to her.
"Soul sister," I said. She smiled. Right then a leaf fell. "Did you
know, Michelle, when a leaf falls here what happens on exactly the
opposite spot on the other side of the Earth?" "No," she said, laugh–
ing with God's joy. "Well Michelle. I'll tell you. When a leaf falls
here, a leaf falls at the same time on the other side of the Earth
and this keeps our planet on its orbit." "But Daniel," she teased,
"What if it's the Indian Ocean on the other side?" "Then," I
responded in a strong dark voice, "a dead fish falls to the bottom
of the sea. And so the earth is kept in motion."
Just then someone tapped me. I turned, expecting it to
be
Melanie and my heart pounded. But it was only Janet - the schizo..
phrenic. She wanted to "thank me for pointing the way to the Holy
Land of the Heart." She said that over and over. I said "Amen"
and walked away. I didn't feel like talking to Janet anymore.
I remember when Melanie and I went for walks in the Park.
And also once in Monterey when we went for a walk by the sea.
That time, I remember, I climbed way out on this huge rock with
the waves coming at me. I stayed up on that rock for hours and
I forgot about everything else - about Melanie and leaving college
and my mission and like I say, Melanie waiting for me on the
shore. I just became hypnotized to the mystic ache of the Ocean.
I felt
this
huge oneness calling me - begging me to join with it
in
union beneath the waves. The ocean was pulling me, pulling me, and
I had to struggle with
all
my might to keep from jumping
in
and
falling to the Palace of the One glowing beneath the waters.
