THE MAKING OF AMERICANS
JOURNAL OF DANIEL
May the first
I have decided to start a Journal. Maybe it
will
keep my
mind off the Outside and the Man. Besides somebody might decide
to publish it someday, and then they'll make a movie of it and I
could be the star. I'd be good too, because once I was in a play
and everyone said I was great. I
think
it was my looks, because
when I walk down the street people always stop and stare at me.
I -asked my fiancee about
it
and she insisted it was because I'm
unusually handsome. She said there's nothing strange about me.
I wish I could believe that, but in a way I don't. I don't mind
being strange that much. Actually it gives me a lot of insight into
people and life and reality. I feel this great power inside me and
now that I actually think about it, I am grateful to God that He
decided to put me in this Hospital. I know that this power in me
will
heal all the patients here. I told my fiancee I wanted to go to
a mental hospital, because I knew that as soon as I walked
in
every–
body would rise, and leave, cured.
I've been here two weeks now and I feel tht power growing
every day. I told my Doctor about it and he understood. He said,
"Yes, I see," and I think he realized that he was in a divine presence.
There's this girl Janet that I met in the waiting room. She said
they told her she's a schizophrenic. One night she saw this man
following her. It wasn't really a man, she said, it was a shadow. So
she cut her
wrist
with a razor blade. I told her to look
in
my eyes
and repeat after me, "I have just seen God. I have just seen God."
She did that and she really changed and became more thoughtful.
I know that I have cured her and that I shall cure all the other
patients in the same way.
