CAROLE KOHANIM
You're very selfish and self-centered.
You just don't know when you're hurting someone.
Your father was right. I don't blame
him
for kicking you out.
You're so busy listening to
God
you don't know how to listen to
people anymore.
Actually all of
this
stuff is pretty old. She's said it before and
I
know it's all probably true.
I
don't feel really hurt about it.
I
gue&'!
I'll
just think about it and
try
to perfect my inner Self. But the only
thing that really hurt me was when she said this:
I
don't believe that stuff about you talking
to
Benjamin Franklin
through Abraham Lincoln. And look it Daniel, you don't believe
it
either.
I
feel
I
must write Melanie about this.
If
she doesn't have faith
in me, our marriage won't ever work. Sometimes
I
look at her and
I
feel dizzy. How can
I
marry
a
Caucasian girl. Maybe my Doctor
was right.
I
thought a lot about it and then
I
talked to my Doctor.
He agreed with me and said
I
should write Melanie
a
letter.
May the seventh
Melanie didn't come today so
I
guess
I'll
just
mail
the letter.
I
am
keeping this copy of it for my Journal:
Dear Melanie,
You know
I
love you with all my heart, but everyday
I
feel my
heart getting weaker. When
I
saw you today all upset and de–
pendent on me,
I
just wanted to tear your breast off.
Melanie
I
love you but the blood from my heart is flowing away
and my hands are red and wet.
Daniel
May the eighth
My younger brother Frank - we call him Sonny - came to
visit me today. He's Francine's twin brother. I remember the
first
time Melanie came to visit and we were all
in
the kitchen - Sonny,
and Francine, Chico and Melanie and me. We were all fooling
around and I was feeling pretty good. Then Sonny, who had
been
acting sort of distant, said something pretty pointed - "Now
we
have
two
in the family." Then he turned on
his
heel and walked
out. I thought he was going to spit in my fiancee's face. Later that
