ROBIN 'MAGOWAN
little-that i whipped so many onto you, really, . .) if you
need for tax purposes to make the check out to
a
lawyer
specifically, rather than to me which i am now again,
Nancy Ling, i can arrange that. I am trying to be as suc–
cinct as possible. I hope you will see by
my
actions that i
did promise myself long ago that i would never hit on you
no more than once
a
year (and if that sounds just too cold
to endure remember that i could hardly have made
a
fool
out of you, since i made so much of
a
giant, desperate
fool out of myself, and i'd be willing and even desirous
of doing anything you ask). Also while i like to harbor
the thought that you'll help me and YOURSELF and some
of our incarcerated brothers out i really am not too sure
you will, but here's to TRYING
hoping that you'll get this soon-and really, wishing you
well even if I never hear from youyouyou
love
ling
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Doubtlessly I should have seen the desperation behind the letter
and coughed up the amount required. But the threat of the yearly
blackmail bothered me, and like anybody living abroad without a job
I had only so much money, so many days to stretch it into, So I
responded with a check for $50 , adding however that I would buy the
second overdose's eight pastels for $450, if she could find them and
send them to me.
It
was a way of making her see that there could be
options besides the massage parlor. But the check never got cashed,
and to this day is probably lying in some FBI vault, part of a gaunt
hypothesis that saw me using Ling for my own political ends . Much
of the rest is tabloid history. Shortly , Marcus Foster, the black
superintendent of the Oakland school system, would be gunned
down , and events soon found Ling paranoically playing with matches
in the dry EI Cerrito hills . In an area where burning is prohibited
this attracted attention, and Ling barely made it out , zooming in
her stolen wagon past the incoming sirens .
The documentation survived the attempted cabin fire : address
books , a list of people to be kidnapped- my father along with Hearst
-and who knows what else. But with all that evidence in police
hands the timetable was bound to get speeded up . I had to be
found at all costs , and found quickly, I don ' t know whether
