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drug has ever taken me-ANY DRUG- and for that reason
i have finally come to the place-as i'd heard and seen
so
many others do-where i don't touch NOTHING i even
kept
a
lot of acid, oil, and weed around for the
1
st month
cuz i just couldn't believe
it
until finally i threw
most
of
it
away-along with handmade sterling silver coke
spoons–
and then gave the rest away-and all i wonder now is
why it took
me so
damn long to get here?? i mean, you dig,
i know i had this outrageous intake due to the fact that
i thought i needed to blur the miseries of this reality we
all live in Now I've found in these last months
a
way to
direct
my
rage and work at ending these miseries instead
of trying to alter them all around and accept them.
So
there
are some of our brothers-white, black, and brown (not
too many asians it seems just now) with whom i cor–
respond and visit and send money orders to and work at
legal aid with AND THEY ARE ALL IN THE PRISONS OF
THIS STATE OF CALIF. FOR ONE TO LIFE And there it
looks like they will stay unless i can generate more finan–
cial support than the $400
a
month i make at this orange
juice stand My morale, however, is together, and
my
direction clear, and
my
insanity problems corrected and
my
religion sure Have you ever read the Koran??? i'm not
into religious rituals of any kind anymore and i regret that
i've been
a
pagan for
so
long, but i read the Koran and
pray in what i consider to be
a
more sincere fashion. And
so
i enclose
a
letter manuscript written by one
22
yr old
white man because i thought that you might enjoy it at
worst or be touched by
it
at best I offer
it
to you because
i know i owe you something and this is all i can give
and then now HERE'S THE HARD PART (I'm sure you 've
seen it coming); naturally there must be at least
2
reasons
for everything including letters to you. This man whose
letters I send is in desperate need of
a
retainer to get his
lawyer on his job and i,
as
usual,
am
in desperate need of
a
little assistance to keep
me
on mine (i mean hitching
up and down the street soliciting blow jobs at $10
a
shot
just isn't making it).
So
how much to ask you for????
Accepting the fact that you may just not be able to bring
yourself to give-give-give
me
anymore money, let's just
say anything from $500 to $50 would be welcome (not
that i expect you to believe me, but i really don't do drugs
no more, and i'm really sorry-maybe even more than
a
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