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finally with empty hands, empty andhumidhands, ALAS, that I came
back BA CK to myself, alone, weeping ofsadness in my lonely bed, stdl
knowing how you must want me, out there , far away, beyond the
meadows, beyond the plains and the deserts, beyond the dark clouds,
beyond the highways and the throughways and the SZtperhighways.
Oh! my darling prune, How I love to hear those juicy words you speak
so tenderly , that n'ch andpoetic vocabulary you know how to dispatch
so well in my direction with SZtch a wave of eloquence.
Ah! my dearest ferocious monkey how well you know how to climb the
trees andbranches ofour love to hurl yourself(like TARZAN) into the
voluptuous jungle ofour desires. My precious apn'cot do not doubt of
me, do not worry, I am yours, do not be jealous, for I am yours alone,
for ever and evermore! I am of those who remain faithful untd death
does us part in the flesh and in the soul! I am waiting for you, you are
there in my skin, bones, nerves and organs like some Deity whom I
sacralize, whom I divinize! COME BACK oh COME BACK to me. I
can 't stand it any more .
My mother tells me that I am crazy to love you so much, crazy to adore a
man like you because you are not worth it, because you are a
GOOD-FOR-NOTHING, a miserable, lazy creature, but me I know,
yes I know that it is not true, and I am convinced that you are
GOOD-FOR-SOMETHING, and that it is not your damn fault zlyou
are the way you are. Me, I know that you are good, real, beautzlul,
gorgeous, enormous, vibrant like a stallion. So, I beg ofyou, brave
adorable paratrooper, continue to do your PUSH UPS solidly,
regularly, stubbornly, despite that mean sergeant, everyday, so that
when you come back (to me) you wdl be strong and ready to crush me
in your fortified arms!
Here the weather Z5 bad, Rains all the time . It 's sad and lonely.
Everybody Z5 sad, unfn·endly. I spend my time watching televz5ion, or
playing my recordplayer. Yes, the days, the weeks, the months pass so
slowly here, in my solitude. If I can manage to save a little cash
(without my dear Mom noticing it) from the money she gives me to do
the shopping, I 'll sendyou AIR MAIL
&
SPECIAL DELIVER Y a TEN
dollar bdlfor the Anniversary (I do hope you remember!) of our first
