RAYMOND FEDERMAN
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HERE IN FACT LET ME GIVE YOU AN EXAMPLE (AMONG
MANY) OF THE TYPE OF LOVE LETTERS I WROTE IN THOSE
DAYS-OF COURSE I'M ONLY QUOTING THE GOOD SEXY
PASSAGES-AND I'M SOMEWHAT CORRECTING EDITING
EXPURGATING CENSURING (IF I MAY) THE KIND OF ENGLISH
I USED IN THOSE DAYS- PURIFYING (IN A SENSE) THE KIND
OF LANGUAGE I WROTE IN THOSE DAYS-IMPROVING
SOMEWHAT THE TONE STYLE GRAMMAR SYNTAX-THE
PRESENTATION ALSO-AND OF COURSE-THIS GOES WITH
OUT SAYING-CORRECTING THE ABOMINABLE PRONUNCI
AnON I HAD THEN (AND STILL QUITE IMPERFECT) WITHOUT
HOWEVER ATTEMPTING TO DEFORM THE ORIGINAL
Fort Bragg, Fayettevzfle,
N.
C.
(Letussay),January
15, 1951
My Darling, My Treasure, My Lovely Adorable
Juicy Peach, My Dear M·· ···
"
You cannot imagine how much I thought ofyou, last night, undermy
lonely knaki blankets, alone, in my narrow mzfitary bed, surrounded
by the heavy oppressive solitude of life in the army. I felt, in me,
through my flesh torn by the pain of your absence, a suffen'ng of
indefi:nable nature. The inner emptiness ofmy soul rang with shn'eks
andgroans,' it was as though needles and knives offire were piercing
my body.
Unable to endure this atrocious su/fen'ng, I took my pn'vate member in
my hands, and feeling it palpitating s(lvagely like a lost animal, no a
giant fruit rather, an enormous banana which was pulsating there
outside my own body, I began to shake it, to handle it, to squeeze it
with all the furor ofmy desire, and suddenly I felt flowing, full blast,
Woosh! a deliciousjuice that I wantedto transmit immediately to your
essential organs. Ah! my dearest reservoir, how much I wanted to feel,
at that moment, the wzfd sugars ofmy fruit flow in you like a torrent.
How I wanted to hear them burst inside ofyou like agun, like a cannon
(a
75
mziimeters), no, like a volcano, in the deepest parts ofyou, in
your most secret, tender, wzfd and unexplored regions.
