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PARTISAN REVIEW
Ah! z/ only you knew, my golden treasure, how much I missed you,
how much we missed each other, last night, when, alone, naked and
vibrant under my mditary blankets, at the most solitary moment of
night in North Carolina my eyes closed, I saw the image ofyour sweet
and soft body sneak next to mine inside my bed. Ah! dear feath ery
chicken , adorable pit/ess peach oftender flesh , smooth and rosy body
ofsuch lovely round contours, velvety like a mushroom without tail,
little sugaredsnad, landscape ofmy inner dreams, z/I could only make
you feel, YES, how much I wanted (last night but also every night) to
penetrate you, with what endless passion , what a huge desire I wanted
to rush towards you beyond the mountains, beyond the valleys,
beyond the rivers and the canals from under my khaki blankets of
loneliness, then you would have known the dimensions of my love,
depth ofmy pool ofpleasure, despair ofmy trembling hands, sources
ofmy loneliness and frustration. I see in my dreams your voluptuous
and greedy hips and your adventurous thighs, hardly npe, avidly
opened to receive, there in that moist furry meadow of yours, the
harvest of my nocturnal cultivation.
Ah! do I worry, do I worry to know that you are alone so faraway in your
little Missoun' hicktown . But .
..
are you ALONE?Here comes doubt
in my head. I fear the thought that, perhaps, at thzs very moment,
some son ofa bitch ofanotherguy (AH! do I tremble) zs holding
YOlt
in
hzs totten'ng SKINNY arms, whde my MUSCULAR arms, my
PARATROOPER arms, my arms splenddy fortified by thousands and
thousands ofpush ups cannot holdyou, andsqueeze you tight to make
you feel, despite the distance , with what madly power, what furor,
what energy, what vitality I would like to grab those lovely contours of
yours and squeeze them out of their last drop of love!
Here Iz/e zs sad without you. But otherwzse everything zs fine -except
for the dzsgusting grub. Ifyou have a bit ofmoney saved, could you
(my darling) be nice to me and send me a
billet doux
(dig it?). I adore
you! Madly andpassionately with my soul and budy. Give your dear
mother (but not your father) a BIG kzss for me .
Your BIG andSAD Carrot,F " K ······
