Rimbaud
did, Whitman did. Where's th e Socialist–
Anarchist- Existentialist
POET?
-I 'm working on it; but I'm not th ere yet.
I've been writing a lot. ...
I always write things down;
I write
everyt hing
down : look at th ese notebooks.
I kept a diary for about three years....
I'm
trying to ta lk myself into leaving it.
There's no room;-why should I take it with me?
I keep re-reading it, to see if I can
find out where things went wrong: it doesn ' t help .
I ha te my poems. They sound phon y; and they
don't make sense.
I know what I want to say–
but it never comes out right; th e words a ll
ge t stuck somewh ere in my head .
I know they're
in there; why is it so hard to find
th e right on es?
That's another reason to
keep moving.. . . I'm bound to learn
somet h ing.
I should call a coupl e of peopl e before I leave.
A gi rl I worked with, a guy I met in a bar
a few months ago-we were pretty fri endl y;
smoked a lo t. .. .
I ha te goodbyes. That's one
of the problems about leaving-they' re too
easy to say; you find out how littl e
you feel.
I think I won't.
Right now
I feel like I'm not anywhere .. . except
still maybe a littl e too close to home.
