ROBIN MAGOWAN
I wish that i could give you love in our waking hours. I would
kiss your feet, for i have always been intrigued by your
demeanor.
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The stage was set in some preexisting never-never land. All I had to
do was walk in, take off my shoes, and be made happy. The Orient
would take care ofK. and the rest.
She appeared for lunch dressed in a bit of white curtain material
that she had ripped off a yardgoods store and cleverly fashioned into
a prettily tucked breast-conscious suit. She was , I gathered , at a
crossroads. Brought up in Santa Rosa in a lower-middle-class Italian–
Irish family-a Chinese girl across the street, her best friend in high
school, was also called Ling-she had gone to Whittier, then
Berkeley, where as an undergraduate she had gotten married . But
her husband must have decided that she had married the ghetto
and not him, and that therefore it was perfectly all right
to
split .
At the moment that I had met her this had turned into its own
bitter dead end and she was looking to the East as a means of re–
attaching herself both
to
nature and her own sexual identity . She
had found a guru who ran a Berkeley vegetarian restaurant and he
had convinced her to put her healing hands to public use . Hence
the request for a recommendation so that she could get a job at the
u.
C.
Medical School Laboratory. She hoped from there
to
go on to
medical school in the new short-term program for ghetto doctors .
Meanwhile, while awaiting the job opening, she meant to take her
cats and go live in the country, be her own druidic priestess.
I took her home to fulfill the dream's prophecy and afterwards ,
by way of celebration , we rolled the
I Ching ,
getting Ting, the
Cauldron, which aptly suited her basket-shaped body . Not long
thereafter, from a Russian River
P.o .
came a second diary-letter:
1/ 23 Sunday
he said that he thought of
me as a
magician/ did he say
that? he said that we two should write something together–
but was that probably bullshit
oh no i
am
not
a
magician, not yet-because you do not
really believe that i am.
he said to call him sometime when I get
a
pad
the I Ching under " ring, the Cauldron " says, "at the
