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don't want any personal considerations any sign of humanity enrages
you makes you cruel you want to kill her. Pretty soon everything is shot
to hell the energy released in this kind of spasm is enormous ecstatic '
and terrible. A transmutation occurs not unlike that in an atomic
explosion the delicate balance of personal and social forces held in
suspension that we call civilization explodes in a moment of frenzy
rape cruelty murder and collapses into the lower level of organization
characteristic of dead matter Hitler's Germany. Eros provokes
Thanatos. Or so they say. It's fucking that opens Pandora's box.
Orgasm is the first gasp the first gasp of insatiability that only ends by
ending the unbearable tension between matter and spirit between life
and death. In my relations with Rebekah there are three phases The
Phase ofCruelty The Phase of Imagination The Phase of Illumination.
In The Phase ofCruelty Rebekah is an idea an idea of which her breasts
and buttocks are correlaries and her vagina the proof you might say a
carnal idea that is an idea of carnality like a sexy ad a salacious photo–
graph. She is an idea for me I am an idea for her. Ideas start in the head.
They are analytic. They are discontinuous with the object. They are a
priori in the sense that you lay them on the object she lays her idea
o.n
me I lay my idea on her the mode is rape. This is the empirical tradition
mind rapes nature manipulation exploitation control. Inevitable.
Incredibly erotic. Rebekah is a slave. Make me do things. Hurt me. My
penis is a weapon. She submits to my power she comes like a string of
firecrackers I have three orgasms at a shot we make love all day we're
insatiable.
It
occurs to me we're looking for something the essence of
meat. There is no essence of meat. That's why we're insatiable. That's
Subphase One. Subphase Two is Fesselation. In Fesselation there is a
great deal of oral play on both sides. There seems to be an idea abroad
that sperm might be the essence or barring that that a carnal sacrament
might be possible we might in some sense be able to eat one another
the spirit is actually immanent in the body therefore etcetera. But
despite our holiest perversions there is no real connection between one
body and another. This is the matter. Discontinuity. Thus Subphase
Three is inevitable. Sodomy. I keep her in a state of perpetual excita–
tion satisfying myself between her buttocks. Since the closer we come
to
continuity the further we are driven from it the only way to achieve
union is for one of us to in effect cease existing to become a pure object
a thing ecstasies of sado-masochism ensue. Hun me. Make me fuck
