PARTISAN REVIEW
cuddle me, lull me to sleep . . . . Our love had so many things to
fight against. We had to resist, to give up five years of joy, or take
the risks. I've never believed that life would iron itself out. I'm
paying dearly for a priceless joy . . . . Hello . . . .
priceless,
and I
don't regret . . . . I . . . . I don't regret anything, anything, any-
thing! .... You .... you're wrong .... you're .... you're ....
you're wrong. I've .... Hello! .... I've got just what I deserved.
I was the one who decided to lose my head, for complete happi–
ness . . . . dearest . . . . listen . . . . Hello! . . . . darling . . . .
let me .... hello .... let me talk. Don't blame yourself. It's all
my fault. Yes it is, it is . . . . Do you remember that Sunday at
Versailles, and the telegram? .... Oh! .... Well, then! ....
I
was the one who wanted to come,
I
was the one who shut you up,
I
was the one who told you it was all the same to me .... No ....
no .... no .... now
y~m
are
being unfair .... I .... I telephoned
first .... no, Tuesday .... a Tuesday .... I'm sure of it. Tuesday
the 27th. Your wire came Monday evening, the 26th. You ought
to realize that I know those dates by heart .... your mother?
Why , ... It's not really any trouble .... I don't know yet ....
Yes .... maybe .... Oh, no! surely not right away; and you?
.... . Tomorrow! .... I had no idea that it was so soon ....
Well, listen . . . . it's perfectly simple . . . . the doorman will have
that bag tomorrow morning. All Joseph will have to do is stop
by for it .... Me? Oh, I don't know, I may stay here, or I may
spend a few days in the country, out at Martha's . . . . Yes, he's
here. He's like a lost soul. Yesterday he spent the whole day be–
tween the vestibule and the bedroom. Watching me. Pricking up
his ears. Listening. He was looking for you everywhere. He seemed
to be blaming me for sitting tl1ere and not getting up to help him
find you . . .. I think it would be best for you to take him . . . .
The poor animal must be so miserable .... Oh, me? . . . . He
~sn't
a woman's dog. I wouldn't look after him right. I wouldn't
take him out. It would be much better for him to stay with you
.... He'd forget me in no time .... Let's wait and see ....
let's wait and see .... No, it isn't complicated at all. All you'd
have to say is that it's some friend's dog. He likes Joseph. Joseph
could come and get him .... I'll put on his red collar, it hasn't
any name-tag . . . . Let's wait and see . . . . yes . . . . yes . . . .
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