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jaw under local anesthesia. The procedure was more complicated
than expected, and Anna Freud had to keep an all-night vigil at the
clinic while her father recovered from profuse bleeding. Before they
were even informed by Freud's doctors that the growth signalled
cancer, Anna Freud's reaction was conclusive: "I would not leave
him now under any circumstances," she wrote to Lou Andreas–
Salome.
In June, less than two months after the surgery, Sophie Freud
Halberstadt's youngest boy, Heinerle, died of miliary tuberculosis in
Mathilde and Robert Hollitscher's home. The Hollitschers had
hoped to be able to adopt Heinerle, and Freud had hoped to have his
lovely grandson, for whom he felt a special affection, close by. For
everyone in the Freud family, the summer was bleak, full of grief
over the child and worry about Freud's health. A plan that Anna
Freud had made with her father for a vacation trip to Rome was sus–
pended. Finally, they did go, while Freud's physician Felix Deutsch
arranged for further surgery on Freud's jaw to be undertaken as soon
as they returned to Vienna.
By the end of the year, when Freud had recuperated from two
drastic operations, Anna Freud was exhausted, particularly as she
combined her nursing duty with her first three analytic patients and
her translating and editorial work for the psychoanalytic publishing
house. A New Year's visit from her still eager suitor Hans Lampl left
her unmoved: " ... he has no luck with me. I can be with him in a
friendly way very well, but I am not suitable for marriage. I am not
suitable at all for Lampl, but also, for the moment, I am no better
[for] a table, or a sofa, or even my own rocking chair."
When she wrote that unhappy report, Anna Freud was trying
to fend off a recurrence of the serial daydreams, the "nice stories,"
which she had been relieved of for nearly two years by her analysis.
Her relapse was aggravated by an irony: her second patient was a
young woman so much like herself that she was constantly amazed.
She told Lou Andreas-Salome:
Although I am pretty busy right now ... in the last week my
"nice stories" all of a sudden surfaced again and rampaged for
days as they have not for a long while. Now they are asleep
again, but I was impressed by how unchangable and forceful and
alluring such a daydream is, even if it has been-like my poor
one-pulled apart, analyzed, published, and in every way mis–
handled and mistreated. I know that it is really shameful-espe-
