MY BEATRICE
(La Beatrice)
While I was walking in a pitted place,
crying aloud against the human race,
letting thoughts ramble here and there apart–
knives singing on the whetstone of my heart–
I saw a cloud descending on my head
in the full noon, a cloud inhabited
by black devils, sharp, humped, inquisitive
as dwarfs. They knew where I was sensitive,
now idling there, and looked me up and down,
as cool delinquents watch a madman clown.
I heard them laugh and snicker blasphemies,
while swapping signs and blinking with their eyes.
"Let's stop and watch this creature at our leisure-–
all sighs and sweaty hair. We'll take
his
measure.
It's a great pity that this mountebank
and ghost of Hamlet strutting on his plank
should think he's such an artist at his role
he
has
to paralyse the butterflies and bees
with a peepshow of his indecencies--
and even we, who gave him his education,
must listen to his schoolboy declamation."
I would have liked (my pride was riding high
above the mountains and the devils' cry)
to
have gone on as Hamlet and turned my back,
had I not seen among the filthy pack
(oh crime that should have made the sun drop dead!)
my heart's queen and the mistress of my bed
there purring with the rest at my distress,
and sometimes tossing them a stale caress.
