{"id":814,"date":"2015-08-18T16:47:55","date_gmt":"2015-08-18T20:47:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bu.edu\/236magazine\/?page_id=814"},"modified":"2015-08-20T15:15:10","modified_gmt":"2015-08-20T19:15:10","slug":"fiction-saskya-jain","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.bu.edu\/236magazine\/fiction-saskya-jain\/","title":{"rendered":"Fiction: Saskya Jain"},"content":{"rendered":"
Saskya Jain (Fiction 2010) is an Indian author whose work has featured in <\/span>The Economist, Hyphen<\/i> and <\/span>The Baffler<\/i>. She holds an MFA in Fiction from Boston University, where she received the Florence Engel Randall Award and the Robert Pinsky Global Fellowship. \u00a0Fire Under Ash<\/em> (Random House India, 2014) is her first novel.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/h6>\n

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LALLAN, Chapter 2 of\u00a0Fire Under Ash<\/em><\/h1>\n

The prayer mark his mother pressed on to his forehead with the tip of her middle finger had dried on his skin as a heavy drop. Periodically, Lallan wiggled his brows to make sure he still felt it there, afraid that it would get brushed off in the hustle and bustle of the railway platform at Patna Junction, which was filled with families seeing off their relatives on the evening train to Delhi. Every train brought tides of people to its side, the force of their ebb and flow proportionate to the hope invested in the passengers\u2019 destinations to bring about some kind of change in their lives. Lallan told himself that he would remember to scratch the dried vermilion off before exiting the train in Delhi\u2014he liked it mainly for sentimental, not religious, reasons.<\/p>\n

He waved his family over to where the station attendant had said his carriage would come to a halt. Together, they carved a space for themselves near the edge of the platform: Lallan\u2019s father, short, potbellied but otherwise surprisingly slim, in a pressed kurta pyjama, with a profusion of black hairs shooting out of his ears; his mother, even shorter and pencil-thin, in a pale yellow sari with a red border, her hair grey along the inside of her middle parting, leading back to a single thick braid; his two sisters, Sonal and Shagun, the older one in a lilac salwar-kameez with a white dupatta folded over her growing chest, the younger one in a T-shirt and jeans with a Mickey Mouse patch sewed on below the right pocket. With her hand resting on the younger one\u2019s shoulder stood Swapna.<\/p>\n

They had last seen each other at their engagement ten days earlier, which had only been their second meeting in toto. In fact, \u2018meeting\u2019 overdramatized the event: it had added up to little more than their shared presence in his family\u2019s living room.<\/p>\n

The first time he had seen her had been on the headshot stamped \u2018Harvard Professional Photo Studio, Patna\u2019, now tucked somewhere between the pages of his planner in the front pocket of his backpack, one strap of which had ripped from the weight of books. Today he finally saw what she really looked like. He liked her better without the make-up, which was so heavy in the picture and at the engagement ceremony that she could have been living next door to him all his life and he would not have recognized her. The thin lips and pimply forehead were a slight disappointment, but it could have been worse. He had not wanted her to come to the station\u2014and she certainly didn\u2019t look as if she wanted to be there, either\u2014but both of their parents had insisted. Everyone wanted to be seen as modern these days.<\/p>\n

Lallan let his gaze fly over her and his sisters as he turned to his father. He ran his tongue along the inside of his lower lip, making his chin bulge. What could you expect from a Patna girl, anyway? Then his mouth curled into a smile. There were more important reasons to get married than love. And he could still not quite fathom that everything had worked out so bloody well in the end.<\/p>\n

\u2018So,\u2019 Lallan\u2019s father began. Summarizing the facts was the closest he would come to showing emotion. \u2018You\u2019re going to be away for one year.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018Ji, Papaji,\u2019 Lallan confirmed, his amusement restricted to his inside.<\/p>\n

\u2018Ten and a half months,\u2019 Lallan\u2019s mother muttered.<\/p>\n

\u2018Ji, Mummyji. Ten and a half months is exact.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018It\u2019s Delhi,\u2019 his father continued. \u2018So be careful.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018Ji, Papaji.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018And if anyone tries to undermine you because you are Bihari, always remember that you\u2019ve come this far on your own merit and that not many Patna boys have won the Azad College scholarship. If any.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018Ji, Papaji, I won\u2019t forget.\u2019 From the corner of his eye he could see that Swapna still had her gaze cast downwards. Maybe she\u2019s asleep, he thought. Then, narrowing his eyes, It\u2019s her mind that\u2019s asleep. Cheer up, he told himself, you\u2019re going to Delhi for a whole year. Plus, you made a choice for your career. That word finally derailed the feeling of gloom. What a career it was.<\/p>\n

He had convinced his parents to let him go to Delhi now, in June, cleverly arguing that this would allow him to get used to the city so that he would not be distracted once classes began at the end of July. The excitement of his journey and his free time in Delhi made it impossible for him to give in to any deeper sort of melancholy, or to see Swapna as his future wife. He shut her out of his mind, annoyed now that she seemed so immune to the shrill sense of expectation that fevered through his body, so utterly unimpressed that her future husband was leaving for Delhi to complete his master\u2019s at the country\u2019s most prestigious college, after which he would return to take up his post as Assistant Professor at Patna University. Then his expression softened as he had to admit to himself that, ultimately, he owed this position to her.<\/p>\n

When Lallan had been finishing his bachelor\u2019s degree in history at Patna University a few months earlier, his professor had taken him aside. \u2018You\u2019re a smart fellow, Lallan. And loyal.\u2019 He had told him about the assistant professorship, which would become vacant a month or two after Lallan\u2019s graduation from Delhi the following year, qualifying him for the job.<\/p>\n

\u2018Four lakhs,\u2019 the professor had said before Lallan could thank him. \u2018Two for holding the job, two on signing the contract.\u2019<\/p>\n

Lallan had looked at him, not understanding. \u2018My salary, Sir?\u2019<\/p>\n

The professor had laughed. \u2018Such a sweet boy you are. That\u2019s why I like you.\u2019 He leaned back in his faux-leather office chair, eliciting happy squeals from it. \u2018I\u2019m the chairman of the selection committee, which means I decide who gets the job. Four lakhs is the payment to get the job, due to me in two instalments as per the guidelines just mentioned.\u2019 With a hint of apology he added, \u2018My son wants to go to US.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018But, with all due respect as your humble student, Sir, I will be by far the most qualified candidate,\u2019 Lallan heard himself saying, knowing that his family did not have four lakhs and would never be able to pay back such a large loan. \u2018None of the other applicants will have an MA from Azad College, Delhi, Sir.\u2019<\/p>\n

\u2018Which is exactly why I want you for this job, Lallan!\u2019 the professor had said and stood. \u2018That is why I called you here to personally encourage you to get the advance money fast. You will be a great asset to our university. But I know for a fact that at least one of the other candidates won\u2019t mind paying a little extra, you see. So just get the money, and let me take care of the rest.\u2019<\/p>\n

That evening, Lallan had gone to his father, who was reclining on the cot in the living room in front of the TV with his metal toothpick sticking out of the corner of his mouth.<\/p>\n

\u2018Papaji,\u2019 he had begun. \u2018I don\u2019t think I can afford a teaching job at the university. Maximum high school.\u2019 He explained the whole situation to his father. \u2018It will be the same at all universities here,\u2019 he said when he was finished. \u2018Maybe I should not go to Delhi but switch to sales or accounting.\u2019<\/p>\n

An hour later, Lallan leaned back, amazed. His father, not a learned man but possessing an uncanny talent for making connections where the ordinary eye saw none, had come up with a rock-solid plan: Put out an ad in the Patna matrimonials for a soon-to-be university professor, fix the dowry at four lakhs. Take out a loan for the two lakhs advance and pay the deposit on the job. Get married upon graduation from Delhi, receive the dowry. Pay back the loan to the bank and the remaining money to the Professorsahab. Start your first day as Assistant Professor, Department of History, Patna University, with no money owed and a better-than-average wife ready to serve you dinner at home.<\/p>\n

The Professorsahab would get his money, the wife would get a husband with status and Lallan would get not only the job he deserved but a wife to match his new position. \u2018Papaji,\u2019 Lallan said, still shaking his head in wonderment. \u2018How is this possible? This morning I was thinking, Forget about it, I\u2019ll never make it in this world, and now I\u2019m thinking, God himself arranged for this bribe!\u2019<\/p>\n

Swapna was the only daughter in a family of sons and the parents wanted to marry her well. They had some means but no stature. Lallan was a professor-in-the-making, a role that eventually came with assigned campus housing in addition to the deference and perks inherent in the title. Lallan had kissed the tiny Hanuman hanging from a thick black thread around his neck when his father had told him that the dowry had been fixed as required.<\/p>\n

The platform erupted into frenetic movement as the travellers spotted their train approaching. Before picking up the three brand-new suitcases\u2014not the metal trunks his father still travelled with but the hard shell plastic ones bearing the label V.I.P., which Lallan had turned into a V.V.I.P. with the help of one of Sonal\u2019s alphabet stickers\u2014Lallan bent down to touch his father\u2019s feet, then felt his hand on his cheek as he stood. They wrapped an arm around each other\u2019s waist for a sideways hug. \u2018God bless you,\u2019 he said. Then, into Lallan\u2019s ear, \u2018Do well, beta. Life doesn\u2019t give you such two-for-one deals very often.\u2019<\/p>\n

The light-hearted tone in his father\u2019s voice was a complete surprise. For a second, Lallan could say nothing. There was a sparkle in his father\u2019s eye that Lallan could not remember ever seeing before. \u2018Buy one get one free,\u2019 Lallan mumbled back and quickly wiped a tear from his lashes. It hit him that he was not going to see his family, the home he had grown up in, and Patna for a year. Ten and a half months, he corrected himself. He had never been away for that long. What awaited him in Delhi? He cast another quick glance at Swapna as he hugged his mother. Tight-lipped, pea-brained, half-baked or not, Swapna was the woman who would be obliged to be there for him for the rest of his life.<\/p>\n

— Fire Under Ash<\/em> was published by Random House India in 2014.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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