One is of his mother, coming
home from church on a Sunday in May. There is
a ray of sunlight touching the end of her nose,
and the turned-up brim of her hat reveals a
wide, smooth forehead. Although she is smiling,
some distant worry is already casting a shadow
over her happiness.
Then there is one of Alban
on the terrace of the restaurant by the lake,
sitting on the railing, with the gray water
behind him and the misty, white mountain behind
him, big and awe-inspiring.
The last one is of his uncle,
taken the same day and in the same spot. The
poor man seems to have wanted to compensate
for his premature balding by refusing to cut
what hair he had, which had grown to an unreasonable
length despite Mildred's imprecations. The picture
reveals that slow smile of his, frozen in mid-stream.
Although his uncle was an affable man, Joseph
doesn't recall ever hearing him burst out laughing.
If you ask him, that was due to Mildred: she
had snuffed his laughter out.
Now he remembers it clearly.
The day before Massimo had left, between the
sound of the dishes clattering and the water
running to rinse them, he had heard bursts of
angry voices. At first it had been just the
two men, then she had joined in. That's right,
he remembered it now, he'd needed to use the
bathroom but hadn't wanted to cross the room
while they were in there arguing.
He recalls as well that when
Massimo would sweep the terrace he was never
in any hurry to get the crumbs and the dust
from out under Mildred's chair. It seemed he
even took his time. He would see him on all
fours coming and going with the broom, his hair
brushing against her thighs. She would laugh
in little bursts, a strange laugh, almost like
hiccups. One day he had come across them, yes,
a scene he would never forget: the broom on
the floor and Massimo's head with the thick,
black, curly hair, wedged between Mildred's
thighs.
He had put his pile of plates
down quietly and thought immediately of his
uncle, who might return at any moment. He had
run to the empty field and heaved a sigh of
relief upon seeing that the road was clear as
far as the first tunnel, five kilometers of
grace time. Consumed as they were by the dirty
pleasures they were taking, it was obvious they
would get themselves caught one day. Now they
had.
That clear image he has of
them still makes him sick to this day. And his
uncle's bruised eye, he hasn't forgotten that
either, the blue Piedmontese eye. Throughout
his childhood he had heard his mother refer
to her brother's pale gaze, which he believed
could see right through to his soul. Whenever
his uncle would make one of his rare visits
to their farm the hubbub surrounding his visit
always included a certain measure of trepidation
if Joseph's conscience wasn't entirely clear.
He was convinced he would be unmasked at the
very first glance. The apple he had nicked from
the fruit bowl and eaten in hiding seemed to
stick in his throat as he listened to his mother
sing while she peeled fruit for the pie. When
his father put the biscuit-tin on the kitchen
table, the tin from which Joseph had on occasion
helped himself without permission, he could
withstand his mother's inquisitive gaze without
batting an eye as she said,
"I could have sworn this
box was still half full!"
Joseph would be immensely grateful
then to his uncle for his silence. When he thinks
about it now, the idea that his uncle had possessed
this rare talent of detecting cheatery just
because of his piercing gaze was ludicrous,
and makes him smile. Those blue eyes his mother
loved so much didn't see through anything. They
had been taken in by Mildred, after all, when
they had caressed her, been blinded by the iridescent
sheen of her skin and the flaming curls of her
thick hair.
*
During the brief time that
Juliette and the grandfather had spent together,
he had confided in her things which she had
written on a piece of paper torn from one of
her notebooks, which she had then sewn into
the lining of her coat. Why would an apparently
guileless schoolgirl go to such lengths? Some
years later, she had told Joseph the reasons
for her actions. It had not taken much to convince
him they were well founded.
"I knew immediately that
what he was telling me might be valuable one
day, an account of what had happened… I was
afraid of forgetting important details… I also
had the disagreeable feeling that nothing was
below Amelie, that she would snoop around anywhere,
without scruples. As soon as people's backs
were turned she would be going through their
personal things, their papers. I don't think
she was ever caught in the act, but everyone
there was suspicious of her, they were always
on their guard."
"Amelie is the one in
charge out in this part of the world,"
the grandfather had told Juliette. "No
one likes that fact, and in fact no one likes
her. But we're trapped here, you know, Macon
is ten kilometers away, she controls the means
of transportation and does all the shopping
herself. She picks up our ration tickets and
then gives us what food she feels like sharing
with us. I don't walk well, and my daughter
is afraid of horses. As for the Alsatian gardeners,
Lord only knows what she's told them! They know
that they have to toe the line. She signed papers
for all three of them, the father and his two
sons, declaring that they were indispensable
to her for working the farm. Should the fancy
take her, or for that matter one of the visitors
she receives at night, she can denounce them
to the authorities. She has them in the palm
of her hand!
"And they must be worried
stiff! After nightfall, quite a few cars come
and go here. I don't sleep much, and even though
they stop some distance away, at the junction
of the two roads, behind the copse, I still
hear them. And then I hear footsteps in the
grass, and the squeak of the door. Believe me,
what an old insomniac hears from his room on
the second floor isn't going to pass unnoticed
by three hale and hearty men sleeping on the
ground floor right next to the road, even if
they are sleeping off a hard day's work. And
those men are going to be asking themselves
the same question I'm asking myself: who has
a car these days? The answer isn't very complicated:
the doctor, the police, and the Germans.
"The only person to whom
she gives no trouble is Philippe, my grandson,
her cousin. He's at boarding school not very
far away and comes to see his mother, Amelie's
aunt. She lets him come and go as he pleases
and speak to whomever he likes. He goes to the
wine-pressing room quite a lot and I suspect
that the Alsatians meet him there. One day when
I was talking a stroll near the entrance gate
I saw the father go in first, and then not long
afterwards his two sons followed him, one after
another. Nothing unusual about that, it's where
the gardening tools are kept. I sat down on
a bench nearby, minding my own business. An
hour later, no one had come out with a rake,
or a hoe… they were all still inside.
"Now, that wine-press
hasn't pressed a thing since Amelie arrived
because no more wine is being made. The vines
are being maintained but there's no more harvest.
She's transformed one of the vat-rooms into
a barn for the five cows she bought, that she
grazes in a miserable little field behind the
common areas. I wonder if she goes to milk them
herself in the middle of the night—I see them
graze, chew their cud, udders swollen from time
to time, and yet never a drop of milk in the
house—at least not in our quarters! All this
to tell you, my little Juliette, that unless
one is on a very peculiar mission, there is
no reason in the world to go into the wine-press
and stay there for hours. And yet every time
Amelie goes out, Philippe and the workmen lock
themselves in there. The place is full of abandoned
vats, of nooks and crannies. If you ask me,
they're hiding something. Or someone. I'm very
afraid that this is all going to end badly:
Amelie is a snoop, and she has some unsavory
friends."
On two separate occasions,
Philippe had come to the kitchen in the evening
to pay him a visit. Joseph had been wary, he'd
answered in monosyllables to the questions put
to him in a slight drawl. He also recalled how
he'd had to struggle to contain the attraction
he felt to the casual and elegant young man,
who had reminded him of Alban.