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Syllables, Self-Esteem, and Stuttering

BU’s speech disorders clinic opens for year 35


Stanley Fisher, a School of Law professor, practiced his stutter for a year and a half, often at Espresso Royale on Comm Ave, as part of his individual therapy. Photo by Kalman Zabarsky. Photos below by Vernon Doucette

Stanley Fisher lived much of his 40-year career at BU in fear. For decades, as the School of Law professor of law lectured at the podium, he could feel the breath of a beast hovering over his shoulder, claws drawn, ready to strike. The monster was his own voice.

“The idea of telling my students I have a stutter was one of the most shameful things I could imagine,” Fisher says from his ninth floor office in the LAW building, the Citgo sign glowing against the morning sky. “I thought, they’re paying $50,000 a year, they deserve a law professor who can speak and model the golden-tongued advocate.”

After his classes, Fisher, cofounder of the New England Innocence Project, went home wracked with guilt, his self-esteem pummeled. He tortured himself with questions. Did the students catch his speech blocks? Would they complain to the department chair? How would he act in the next class? He never knew when the disorder might kick in, but it was always looming.

“It was very stressful,” he says. “I would just be silent in class, or say things I didn’t mean to say, because otherwise I was afraid I would stutter.”

A little more than 3 percent of children stutter, according to the National Stuttering Association. Most kids shed the problem, but one percent carry it into adulthood. Fisher is a “covert” stutterer. His speech impediment is mild, but he did everything he could to conceal stammers and speech blocks, those random moments when his voice simply wouldn’t work.

For the most part, he passed as fluent, substituting words and starting sentences with vowels rather than nettlesome consonants. He stayed away from the phone, had his wife order food in restaurants, avoided conferences, turned down invitations to speak. For public appearances he couldn’t skip, anxiety chewed him up.

“I’d been at BU almost 40 years before I got what I considered effective help,” he recalls.

That help was found along Commonwealth Avenue, at BU’s Sargent College of Health & Rehabilitation Sciences. “I actually read about the stuttering clinic in a New York Times article,” Fisher says.

It was 2005, and he’d just asked to drop his first-year criminal law class and teach part-time because the stress had become unbearable. He was convinced, irrationally, that he’d become inarticulate and his students were suffering.

“When I found the program and Diane,” he says, “it was like a second life.”

The clinic
Diane Parris (above, center) is a clinical associate professor and codirector of the Joseph Germono Fluency Clinic at Sargent’s Speech, Language and Hearing Center. The weekly stuttering workshop she has run for the 18 years with Adriana DiGrande (above, left), a lecturer in speech, language, and hearing sciences, is now open for the spring semester. A handful of speech pathology graduate students help facilitate. Each week about 20 people who stutter attend a 90-minute workshop for $10 a session and can supplement with individual therapy at $25 a visit (reduced rates are offered to full-time students); with no cause or cure, insurance companies are reluctant to cover stuttering therapy.

A motor skills disorder, stuttering has nothing to do with neurotic personality or excessive nervousness, as is sometimes portrayed by Hollywood. Some experts believe an overactive right-side brain disrupts speech flow.

“It’s a neurophysiological deficit that people are still trying to pinpoint,” Parris says. “There may be a genetic basis for it because we know that it runs in families — 60 percent have family history. Then there’s the 40 percent who don’t.”

A new study published online by the New England Journal of Medicine says three gene mutations may be responsible for about 9 percent of stuttering cases, suggesting that biology is the culprit. It is the first time researchers have identified genes that may predispose people to stuttering, which affects about three million Americans.

Men suffer three times more often than women. Speech devices and drugs have been developed, Parris says, but yield limited results. Coping with crippling anxiety sparked by the fear of stuttering and overcoming perceived judgments and impatience on the part of listeners are cornerstones of Parris’ and DiGrande’s program.

“It’s a socially penalizing disorder,” Parris says. “My goal for people in the clinic, whether or not their speech behaviors change, is to help them become more and more OK with being a person who stutters. It doesn’t have to stop them in life.”

As part of his clinic work, and individual therapy with Parris, Fisher practiced his stutter for a year and a half, often at Espresso Royale on Comm Ave, purposefully stammering through his order, maintaining eye contact, taking note of reactions. He read aloud and kept a journal. He drew pictures of his stutter (right). He wrote letters to his disorder, his “twin, Little Stan.” Spending time with a cross section of stutterers — firemen, telephone workers, businessmen, high school seniors — eased the loneliness. Now, within the first minute of any class, Fisher announces his problem and warns students he might not be able to speak at times.

“The effect has been amazing,” he says. “The number of times I’ve had a speech block has decreased almost entirely. I’m not trying to hide, not ashamed. I’m not as fluent as other people, but it doesn’t mean I’m not fit for my job.”

“I’ve had people who’ve walked away.”
Longtime Boston Globe reporter Brian MacQuarrie can relate. The veteran journalist, who embedded with U.S. forces during the Iraq invasion in 2003 and flew to Haiti after the January earthquake, first found BU’s stuttering clinic in 1994 when he wanted to move from the editor’s desk back to reporting.

“As editor, I didn’t have to confront it that much,” he says, pausing before certain syllables. “You’re working with words, working with colleagues who know the situation. But I wanted to report again, and I was having the same old problems in my social life. I would avoid speaking in public. Just going to the store to order a sandwich was a big event. There were the blocks, but also ph-ph-physical effects — contortions and distortions — and the disappointment emotionally.”

In 33 years in the business, MacQuarrie says, he’s met only one other reporter who stuttered. A few years ago, he wrote about BU’s stuttering clinic for the Boston Sunday Globe. He admits he might as well have been writing about himself:

“His face turns red, his head twitches, his eyes slam shut, and spittle flies in small darts from the corner of his mouth. He’s trying to say two simple words. What 99 percent of the adult population takes for granted, this man approaches with a weary mixture of dread and fatalism. He is an adult stutterer, navigating a communication-hungry world with a faulty rudder that constantly threatens to take him off course.”

MacQuarrieBrian MacQuarrie

Listen to a segment from one of MacQuarrie’s recent therapy sessions. Photo by David L. Ryan/Boston Globe

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A looming speaking tour for a recently published book brought MacQuarrie back to the clinic last spring. He revisited breathing and relaxation techniques, broke down specific muscle movements needed to form vowels and consonants, and communed with fellow sufferers.

“Stuttering continues to be a professional handicap,” MacQuarrie says, pausing before easing into the next sentence. “I have to work with less each time. I’ve had people tell me they can’t believe I’m a reporter because I stutter. I’ve had a couple of people who’ve walked away from interviews. It’s a blow to your self-esteem to have people not give what you thought was the respect you deserved.”

Seeing both sides
One of Parris’ speech pathology graduate students, Kathleen Tehrany (SAR’09), worked in the clinic last year, helping people like MacQuarrie and Fisher capture fluency and view their disorders through a less inhibiting lens.

The semester before, Tehrany was a client.

“I don’t want kids and adults to have to go through what I went through,” she says. “The feelings and attitude piece is a huge component, and I wish that had been addressed for me.”

Tehrany’s twin sister stuttered as a kid, as did her older brother and sister. They outgrew the disorder; Kathleen didn’t. She was teased in and out of school, turning to art and sports. “I didn’t have self-esteem in terms of saying, ‘I can do what I want,’” she says. “I was different, but not in a cool way.”

Tehrany never spoke in class and teachers didn’t call on her. The prospect of an oral report was paralyzing. “Whenever I had an assignment where I had to talk out loud, I thought about it every single day,” she says. “All I could think about was what a fool I was going to make of myself.”

Her world grew tighter than a matchbox.

“I would never order out, no drive-throughs, didn’t make my own appointments for d-d-doctors or d-dentists,” she says. “My twin or mom would call for me. I wanted to have a career where I didn’t interact with people on a day-to-day basis. I majored in geological archaeology, where I could look at artifacts and rocks and not talk.”

After graduating college, she moved to San Francisco, where she worked in Web development, then opened a café with her twin. Speech and communication were often on her mind, and getting to know her customers brought satisfaction. She decided her future lay in speech pathology. She’d been there — she was there. After five years, Tehrany moved to Boston.

She’s a clinical fellow on track for her speech therapist’s license, working at a middle school and the Northshore Children’s Hospital in Salem. Does she get funny looks as a speech pathologist who stutters?

“Most parents have normal reactions given that their kids stutter,” she says. “But one time at the hospital, I went to observe a child and then talked to the mom. After I left, she said to the other clinician, ‘Will my son catch her stutter?’ And her son stuttered. She thought that he’d stutter more if he had a clinician who stuttered.”

Tehrany is one of several hundred participants in a stage-two drug trial. Pagoclone, from Indevus Pharmaceuticals Inc., in Lexington, Mass., was developed to target panic and anxiety, but didn’t show desired results. A couple of women taking it, however, stopped stuttering. So far, the drug has shown an average 19.4 percent reduction in syllables stuttered compared with 5.1 percent for a placebo. During open-label treatment, a 40 percent drop in syllables stuttered was observed after one year.

“It’s exciting,” Tehrany says. “This is the first one they really think could make a difference. And there aren’t any real adverse side effects. Some headaches, lightheadedness, fatigue.”

Tehrany’s stutter has softened since she started the trial, but she isn’t able to separate the drug’s role from her work with Parris, the confidence that comes with professional accomplishment, and simply growing older.

“I’m less self-conscious,” she says. “I still don’t like the fact that I stutter, but I don’t put as many limitations on myself.”

TehranyKathleen Tehrany

Before treatment

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Kathleen Tehrany

After treatment

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To learn more about stuttering, visit The Stuttering Foundation of America.

Caleb Daniloff can be reached at cdanilof@bu.edu.


4 Comments on Syllables, Self-Esteem, and Stuttering

  • Bud on 02.16.2010 at 8:17 am

    Marvelous article with a nice addition of audio! Some of the things mentioned, like taking breaths more often and relaxing the muscles when speaking were helpful to my uncles. Years ago, they got help through The Stuttering Foundation who recommended a therapist for one of my uncles after he moved away from home as they do Adriana DiGrande and others for people in Massachusetts. For families with several stutterers, knowing there is a genetic reason sets the record straight for all those that think it is because of poor parenting skills or because they tickled the baby (which some people still believe!)

  • Anonymous on 02.16.2010 at 9:08 am

    Stuttering clinic at BU

    I found the article “Syllables, Self-Esteem, and Stuttering” to be both interesting and compassionate. Stanley Fisher should be commended for giving of himself to profiled in the article.

    The rates at BU’s Sargent College of Health & Rehabilitation Sciences are extremely reasonable! With employer-based health insurance covering minimal private speech therapy these days, such a low-cost service like BU’s Sargent College is needed.

    I want to point out something that was not mentioned in the article. There is little attention ever given to the fact that every child in the U.S. has the right to free speech therapy! This right, guaranteed by federal law, can be used as early as preschool and go through high school. The Stuttering Foundation last year put out a brochure “Special Education Law and Children Who Stutter” which details this right to free therapy. The brochure is available for download on the website of The Stuttering Foundation (www.stutteringhelp.org). Please note that the Stuttering Foundation makes it quite clear to parents that the right free speech therapy extends to children with ALL types of speech problems and not just stuttering. The website of this nonprofit organization also offers many free resources on stuttering, such as downloadable brochures. Check out their fascinating list of “Famous People Who Stutter” with names like Bruce Willis, Marilyn Monroe, Emily Blunt, James Earl Jones, Johnny Damon, Eric Roberts and Peggy Lipton.

    I cannot express how much I applaud BU’s Sargent College of Health & Rehabilitation Sciences for providing affordable rates to people with speech problems.

    • Anonymous on 02.19.2010 at 5:18 pm

      Professor Fisher is awesome

      ’nuff said.

  • Anonymous on 02.16.2010 at 11:31 am

    This story is very inspirational. Fisher, MacQuarrie and Tehrany are brave role models. Thanks for sharing your stories!

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